9/15/2009 - Photo
So today it turns out Patrick Swayze died from his long battle with pancreatic cancer. I saw the change in him reading magazines and he had become very gaunt. He said he knew his cancer was from his chain smoking habit but he continued to smoke any ways. As a 10 yo, I found him rather desirable in Ghost… not Demi Moore though… And I still don’t like her… Any ways… deepest regret to the Swayze family for their loss… Patrick 18 August 1952 - September 14 2009.
After hearing about this is made me think about my Nan who developed lung cancer in 2008 and was given only a very short time to live. She too smoked, and it’s one the reasons I gave it away because I didn’t want to put any one through me have lung cancer (or even myself!) As a nurse it was hard to watch the disease process because I was fully aware of what was happening and what she was feeling. (Only in theory – but watching a loved one slowly die from the inside out is horrific enough even without knowledge of the disease)
She died only 6 months later after falling in a coma and I’ll always remember that day. Today, I still have regrets because I lost precious time with her because I was living in Sydney and each day I still think about her and how much of a mum she was to me and how she helped me become the person I am today. Most things I do, I imagine what she would think of how I’m doing it. It’s made me less selfish and I see people in a different light now. A better one. She wasn’t perfect, nobody is, but she was perfect to me and I am yet to meet anybody like her, I doubt I ever will. *Exhales* This was the first death I had experienced firsthand in my family and I struggle to comprehend it some days. I guess it’ll become easier over time.
Peece. xx
Attached it a Photo of my Nan with my Sister. She was nice enough to take one for me because i wasn’t around.
